I’m feeling the blues. Anyway, so what I’ve been trying to do so hard for so long now is to stop being jealous. Sometimes I get that ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude, but it’s so that I convince myself that I’m perfectly fine with feeling left out, when somewhere, in the back of my mind, I feel weak. I feel so dependable on people, it sickens me. I think I’m just an overly-sensitive dramatic teenager. Some things offend me so much that I feel like it’s the end of the world. I think there’s something mentally wrong with me. Sometimes I make a big deal of something when I know it’s not worth it to stress about. I over-think and overreact a lot. I hate myself because of that. I really need to do something about this immature mentality I have. And don’t even get me started on my temper. That is the #1 thing I have to fix aside from my unattractive appearance. I get anxiety attacks. It’s becoming more often as time progresses. My actions are starting to scare my brain; it’s something I can’t control anymore. I don’t know what to do because I can’t tell anyone about this. I feel as if no one is willing to listen, & I hate getting all sentimental about these types of things because I get embarrassed. I want to mold a carefree type of image. I don’t want to reveal my sensitive side to anyone; I don’t want to expose my weaknesses.