October 2011
23 posts
MY MOM WENT TO NOODLE PLANET WITHOUT ME
BOOO
10/24/11
I’m starting to get obsessed with what I eat. Today I ate:
Breakfast: 1 bowl of corn pops
Lunch: A few bites of chicken + 1 cup of peach sorbet (school lunch)
After School: 1 can of Pepsi, 1 Pancake (from McDonalds), 1 Banana
1 hr later I ate some M&M’s (half of a fun sized bag)
Snack: 1 small bowl of Chunky Monkey Ice Cream
Dinner: 2 boiled eggs w/ salt,...
fat legs
fat arms
fat stomach
fat face
double chin
ugly knees
armpit boobs
big obese butt
cellulite
blemishes
spots on legs
stubby legs
jiggly legs
flat nose
big nostrils
uneven tans
OBESE
jiggly stomach
fat feet
big eye circles/eye bags
fat legs
fat legs
fat legs
stubby legs
stubby legs
light eye brows
dry, ugly skin
FAT LEGS AND ARMS
FAT
FAT
FAT
I tried going on the elliptical today. Whenever I do, I usually last about 20 minutes. But that was 2 months ago. Today, I was dying after a couple of minutes. I couldn’t even last 5 minutes on it. And right now, I feel so dead. Idk why but I felt dead the whole day. I don’t feel like doing anything, I don’t feel like eating anything, I don’t feel like talking to anyone....
I hate stressing over unnecessary shit.
Neighborhood Clean Up
I had a productive day today. Woke up like at 8:05 on a Saturday. I participated in a neighborhood clean up, where kids gather up & break into groups to clean up several blocks. So about 250 kids joined and cleaned 26 blocks in the neighborhood. After, I walked to my friend’s house and stayed there for a bit. My dad picked me up & we went to the dentist at 2:00. Tightened my braces....
Sometimes I don't feel anything.
Sometimes I just don’t care about anyone or anything. And that makes me feel really selfish, but I can’t help it. I don’t look forward to anything anymore, because I know it’s going to end. I feel like I have died, and something or someone is stopping me from reviving.
Blasting melodramatic music
I’m feeling the blues. Anyway, so what I’ve been trying to do so hard for so long now is to stop being jealous. Sometimes I get that ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude, but it’s so that I convince myself that I’m perfectly fine with feeling left out, when somewhere, in the back of my mind, I feel weak. I feel so dependable on people, it sickens me. I think...
He still remembers me.
He said hi to me today. I don’t know why but I get this nauseous feeling every time I see him. It’s like I look forward to seeing him. What the fuck. I think this is wrong. I think I’m just going through a phase. & I think I automatically like anyone who is nice to me. Maybe I’m just searching for a father figure out of him. Because no one has actually been so...
Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
I am not a social person. I am doing the community service for the hours/credit I’ll receive. It’s going to be so fucking packed. Dammit. I really truly hate crowds. I really hate being around people sometimes. And I hate trying to be nice. And I hate trying to be talkative, because actually, I don’t have anything to say. I like keeping my mouth shut, but too bad everyone’s...
my word, my sanity
omg i hate myself for being so emotional sometimes
like just chill karen
nobody cares
1 tag
I made a new blog and it feels good.
I don’t know about you, but when you have friends, or people you know in real life following you, it feels awkward. You post something and everyone knows. It just feels weird, LOL. I can’t vent about personal stuff because I feel exposed. If that makes sense.
"Buyer's Remorse"
This has been said many times but I need to stop buying so many things. Like I don’t even use them. I don’t even look at it once it gets home. I don’t know why, but when I’m at the store I feel like I have to have it. Then I don’t even take a second look at it when it’s in my room.